unconditional l.o.v.e

2010-07-07T03:21:00.000-07:00

it may just to be time to close the blog.
anyways, i cant afford the time to blog anymore. i guess i shall just leave it to wither, till the Os are over. okay sooo good byeee :D

2010-06-06T01:08:00.001-07:00

SENTOSA YESTERDAY. LOVED THE PICS TAKEN@ FB!
@jingwei: NO LAR NOT UR FAULT! :D

2010-06-04T03:51:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA.
I FOUND MY BOTTLE YESTERDAY.
SO HAPPY.
i had better start studying.
had chem and chinese today. we went to the learn@kr there to have our chinese ! like 12girls and 1 teacher. HAHAHAH. imagine how gossipy we can get, HAHHAHAH.
and isabel and nichelle were quarrelling over their favourite idol, Jaychou and Show Luo. gosh, those 2 wouldnt stop squabbling until they are done :D but its was makes the whole atmosphere more fun :D
HAHAHAH.
okay there's amath mock exam and POA tmr. haix.
POA. POA POA. i think i m gonna screw my POA man.
i got to go start studying.
and i love my picturee :D i played with fire to get that picture. NO LAR. JOKING. i merely just used a lighter to light up my beautiful candles :D HAHAHAHAH. i am such a weird person. GOSH. okay goodbye.

2010-06-02T08:10:00.000-07:00

WOW.

i went to Queenstown library to study todayy. and apparently i really did study!

2hrs of straight SOLID studying. HAHAHH. YAYAYAYAYAY. why am i even so happy? WHATS WRONG WITH ME. HAHHA.

LOLOLOL. Borrowed 3 books on dancee :D not story book kind, but those FACTUAL kind. AWESOME BOOKS:D

wanna study again soon. cantt waittt :D

@anne : thankss :D will link u up real soon!

2010-06-01T05:06:00.000-07:00

WENT TO THE LIBRARY TODAYY.
OMG I ACTUALLY WENT TO THE LIBRARY FOR 4hrs.
i spent 4hrs in the library,30mins eating, 3hrs studying, 30mins laughing.
HAHHAHA. so happen to see meichi and her friend there :D hahha. morgan and i laughed alot.
HAHAHHA. OKAY OKAY OKAY.
BUT WE DID MATH!
we really got do okay! HAHAHAH.

ilovemypicturee :D
and i really do NOT mean it :P

@teresa: YES SISTER! TAGGED. i tagged you too :D

2010-05-31T08:26:00.001-07:00

OMG.
I SCREWED UP MY PAPERS.
Os CHINESE.
PAPER1 I AM SO SCREWED.
GOSH.
so fucked up lately.
argh. getting more and more PMS-Y.
just yesterday, happened to speak to an old time friend. so many memories of us came back to life. but its never gonna happen like the past anymore. those are just memories of US. friends forever.

2010-05-28T08:31:00.001-07:00

I WANT MY WATER BOTTLE BACK NOW.
I CANT SURVIVE WITHOUT MY BOTTLE.

2010-05-27T21:29:00.000-07:00

LIKE FUCK MAN, i left my obs water bottle at the library area ytd after the shanghai thingy. FUCK FUCK FUCK. ARGH. freaking pissed. freaking upset. i have been upset abt it since last night. throwing all sorts of tantrum. ARGH.

SUPER BAD MOOD.
i want my water bottle back.

2010-05-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

i seriously think that i am already insane.
i think i hang on the computer too much also.
i think its time i lock myself from internet man.
gosh.

COUNTDOWN 5 more days left to Os chinese.

and i am not quite studying CHINESE. OMG OMG OMG. i should really get started. no no, more like its the last push for it already.
did a chem test today, CONFIRM FAIL. didnt even study for it yesterday, cause i was busy studying CHINESE. DOING CHINESE. WTF. stayed back in school with samuel and a few others. watched the rehearsal for the shanghai pupils. watched dance perform. studied CHINESE. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. wow. hahaha.
there's a math mock exam again tmr, from like 4pm to 6pm. 6-6.30pm, its MARKING TIME, looks like 4E7 's gonna be the last class to leave the school, AGAIN. HOW HARDWORKING. LMAO.

PLEASE GOD. MAKE TOMORROW BETTER.
I am dying a little every single day.

and as i saw u go, i felt my heart shatter.
its painful, and when i heard ur voice, it became worst.
and when i saw ur face. i just felt like the world went crumpling down.

2010-05-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

its back to school today, and i was like NOOOOO.i dont wanna go to school. i hate school. freaking hate school.

There was intensive Chinese today, from like 8am to 11.15am. WOW. i endured chinese. it was rather boring though. oh who cares, i just wanna get over my chinese Os and forget abt it FOREVER. like seriously forever.
not gonna be blogging so much in future, cause i wanna concentrate on Os!
like ya, so less blogging in future!
so GOODBYE.
@neville: nevermindd.

2010-05-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

i cant believe i just asked.
OMG OMG OMG.
i cant wait to start dancing againnnn :D
gonna try for auditions for dance at SOTA this yearrr!
i dont quite care if i get in or not,i just gonna go there for the experience. so i know what it will be like if i go for NAFA or LASALLE auditions in future :D
yayness.
the senior dancers are not dancing for the shanghai students. SADNESS. but we're gonna be there to support them for sure :DD
gonna go start searching for my music, good byeee:D

@neville : stop spamming my cbox!

2010-05-20T04:04:00.000-07:00

today's considered a better day.
haix.
20may. in the past, i used to love this day. now, i dont hate it, but i miss it.
anyways. who cares. its the past. past are our memories.i guess it will always stay there, as a memory.
today, i realised someone didnt come to school. anyways. get back to main point.
i guess POA lesson was slighty better today.
nothing much happened.
took a "surprise" physics revision test. marked on the spot! WOOHOO. A2!
got back my chinese and El results. SUCKED TO THE MAX.
Chinese its only b3, i want my a1.
El, i cant believe i failed my compre. come on man. the highest in class is 13. 13/25. see how lousy it is. NOT GOOD. NOT GOOD >.< style="font-weight: bold;font-size:180%;">COUNTDOWN TO CHINESE Os. 11 more days!

2010-05-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

YAY.
went to SOTA's "open house" yesterday. it wasnt even open hse lar! nvm, now seriously considering whether i should go for SOTA. registrations for talent academy must be submitted by 11june, auditions clash with midyear exams. should i go, this yr, or next yr?
my parents tell me to sleep over it, they dont object me to me going for it. HAHAHHA. OH wells, guess its my future, i decide. but i dont know. haix.

SCREW IT MAN.
there's amath mock exam later on. at 2.30pm, i rather have lessons in the morning man.
well, there's no point dreading anyway, haix. goodbye, off to study a math for later on.

2010-05-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

i simply dont understand.
why is everyone around me getting an iphone? NOT FAIRRR.
really not fair.
my cousin got an iphone too!
I AM FREAKING JEALOUS.
not fair!! !@#$%^&$@!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@$!!???!*^%^#(#$%^&*($%^%$#@#$@#$??@?$:>?
HAHAHAH. okayy.
had tuition todayy.
i am going to SOTA's OPEN HOUSE TOMORROWW! and i swear. hahah, i am gonna go at night. HAHAHA. registered alreadyy:D YAYNESS :P
okay i should start studying again :D BYEBYESSS.

@ernald: you need a guy?? okay i'll find A GUY for you :D

2010-05-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

gosh.
i took a jab today. and it was SOOO FREAKING PAIN. the doctor, just injected it in, so damn slowly. gosh. pain pain pain! its a jab for chicken pox! i havent gotten my chicken pox yetttt :P
and its swelling.

oh, i went to the gym yesterday! Did a great work out! gonna go back more often :D yay more salad noww :D

okay, there's piano tmr,good byee.

2010-05-13T03:24:00.000-07:00

haix. i m feeling kinda... WEIRD. i dont know what to say. gosh.
ARGH. the feeling is just wrong.
SO FUCKING WRONG. HHAHAHA.
Watching a ballerina dance CARMEN on Youtube.
She's

Svetlana Zakharova.

a ballerina rather well-known. :D
love her dancing.
cant wait till Os are over, then i can go learn ballet! :D
AND HIP HOP :D

@neville: its supposed to be like that :D

2010-05-11T04:39:00.000-07:00

i took this picture:D

HELLLO WORLD!
Hello, my new life :D
i have probably "completely" forgotten about my worries.
well, though there is still a tiny winny bits here and there, but who cares.
oh ya, it was real funny today.
Mrs Tan came into our class during mr raja's lesson, to inform us about our new timetable.
AND. about marking day as well. and...
well, UNFORTUNATELY.
our marking day became our tutorial day for math. DAMN! my day is completely ruined! AHHH. i wanted to go watch THE LAST SONG DAMN IT. or go for photography or something. now, nothing. haix.
had 2tests today. damn. screwed. math. again. screw it man.

okayyy, i am gonna go study now.
oh yes, i hate combine classes with Bclass for chinese. so noisy.

@morgan: thanks girlfriend. i love you :D

2010-05-09T01:01:00.000-07:00

okayyy.
i am broke now. this morning, after my piano lesson, cause its the ACTUAL MOTHERS' DAY, i went to Yumcha to treat my mum lunch. we knew that the bill came out to be $51.40! i am officially broke now man. seriously broke. HAHAHA. okayyy. took quite a lot of pictures yesterday! but i cant upload it noww. my computer crash, using my mum's laptop. cant upload the pictures! damn sian. HAHAHAH.

nevermind, i've got another math tuition noww , good byee.

@sakshi: HELLO LESBO. yea, who needs guys. we can depend on each otherrr :D LESBOOO!

2010-05-08T00:18:00.000-07:00

SO TIRED.
INSANITY KILLS.
i think i'm going insane. HAHAH.okay, no i was just joking, if i was insane i wouldnt be here using the computer, blogging.
well, maybe i really am going insane.
gonna go for a MOTHER'S DAY DINNER LATERR ONNN :D
at 313 @ somerset at MARCHE :D daddy wants to go there.
monday's p2 for the language papers.
after that its during the june hols when the sec4s have our MYE.
okay, goodbyeee.

2010-05-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

what is your definition of love?

my definition, is hoping for one to be happy. WITHOUT ME AROUND.

Memories so vivid, so hard to let go, but i just have to.

no doubt, its painful, but why bother with all this nonsense now?

i simply cant be bothered.

its not longer worth my time, and brain cells to think abt.

no matter how painful it can get, only time will heal the pain. the truth always hurts, but its always better to know. i rather know the truth than to be kept in the dark, in suspense.

things to always remember,

1. dont ever fall in love, especially when u're in sec4. ur life gets screwed up.

2. if you do fall in love, make sure you end it asap, no matter how FAIRYTALE like it could be. why?-REFER TO POINT 1! love, never fails to screw your life.

heartbreaking.

memories.

but who cares.

who gives a fucking damn.

its just love.

is love that important in our lives as teenagers?

Being in love, means alot to normal teenagers, now, to me, i dont think so.

LOVE is optional. you dont need love to survive in the world.

so who fucking cares about love?

SO TO ALL TEENAGERS(HAHAHA):

give urself a break, take a KIT KAT, and break up. LOL, okay, joking.
but still, get a hold urself and love urself. no point cutting urself, slashing urself. FOR WHAT. foe hell's sake, get a life, get out of a damn relationship! what so good about guys?

A BUNCH OF SUCKERS FOR LOVE.

ps: i'm sorry, if i have offended anyone reading this post, about love. i simply cant be bothered how love is like.

2010-05-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

i guess, its just time to for me to forget and let go. i dont want to dwell on it anymore.
i cant be bothered anymore. though it still tingles inside of me, i know that i need to let go, it not i will be super miserable.been there, done that, and i've had enough.

i hope that things would go for the better as time passes.

2010-05-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

okay. tried sorting out problems today, but nothing.
instead, i found out even more things.
now i am being kept in suspension until another4days till i know the truth.
i rather know the truth than to be kept in the dark, so could you guys please. tell me whats going on, and tell me the truth. pls.

didnt have humanities tutorial today.
so home early.

2010-05-05T06:56:00.000-07:00

i found out something i probably shouldnt have known at this point of time.
now, i am all confused again. everything's starting all over again. the pain, everything. it took me so long, to figure out what i had to do with my life, and now, just within one conversation, my whole life took another HUGE turn. come on man, is it just that God is trying to give me a challenge? Or is it that my life is just so damn bloody hard. gosh.

its hard to live. so hard. i want to end it, but i know i cant. i would hurt so many.
i have got to carry on with my life. i dont want to fail anymore. i dont want to be going on like this, but i am just not able to do it anymore. i dont have to strength to move on, i dont have the courage and faith to tell myself, " cynthia, move on, you cant be stuck here forever."
i dont know what to do. who can tell me what to do.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.It does not take offence and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, to endure whatever that comes.
-A walk to remember, Nicholas Sparks.

i want to know whats going on. i really do. tell me, would you please please tell me.

2010-05-04T03:19:00.000-07:00

went to West coast park to take a breather with morgan.
before that, a few issues along the way.
things have been going worse, how to solve the problem? i dont understand.
maybe the six of us or rather 8 of us know whats going on.
only those who know would understand.
i simply dont understand.

@kaiqi: hellos, fine, what about you?
@morgan: oh, ok ok i see, hahah, i was just joking only lar :D

2010-04-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

things got a little out of hand today.

had EL and CL p1 today.

so tired. and also had math tutorial.

and though its a holiday on the coming monday, I, have to go back for math tutorial from 10am to about 2plus? i dont know. i really dread going for it. seriously, i maybe be whinning like shit, but pls, let me off.

i hate this. but however much i may hate it, i cant complain or whatsoever, cause its a pathway i chose to walk. now, how i wish i didnt chose this road.

went to watch MAO'S LAST DANCER at vivo after tutorial. rushed home to bathed, and rushed to Vivocity from queenstown with bitch and lesbo, we cabbed down, ahhaha, and we were bitching in the cab , hahahha.

MAO'S LAST DANCER WAS AWESOME. teachnique and dance wise, totally, blew me off. storyline wise, hmm, quite ok, quite sad, but its a true story.rather touching.

camwhored a little only, but the pictures were really quite nice:D loved the one with the neon lights.

at vivo, i stepped back on the pathway i wouldnt forget. we were just roaming about, thinking of where to take pictures. and as we walked , we reached the top , and i stepped on the area i would never forget; that area, the chair, and that path, would always remind me of those beautiful moments. though its already a memory, it will always be a good one :D

2010-04-29T06:47:00.000-07:00

i guess, things did change for the better today.
things didnt get all emo anymore.
i hope that it goes on like this forever. i hope time would pause at this very moment, where i could just let it be the way it should be.
tmr's EL midyear, and i just had El tuition. tired out, but i still got to revise chinese. and El.
i hope things go smoothly tomorrow.
GONNA WATCH MAO'S LAST DANCERR :D with lesbo and the bitch, hahhaha, after math tmr.
i guess from now on, i am my math's teacher's FAVOURITE STUDENT. hahhah. oh well, guess its better that way, i receive more attention from him. and maybe, JUST MAYBE, i could improve. i hope to improve, but i dont know how. like, even practising like shit doesnt work. it just doesnt work. go GOD. tell me what to do. i dont wanna fail anymore. i hate failing. sometimes, when people act happy when something bad happens, seriously, its doesnt really mean that.
they're just trying to hide the misery they are going through, trying to make themselves happy i suppose. well, i guess, just let nature take its course.

got to go,
leaving this blog dangling, for probably a few weeks? i dont know, i would have the urge to come back to blog, but i know, got to studyyy for MYE!
its COMINGGG. so sayonara.

@YVONNE; hey, thanks for the tag

2010-04-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

things changed slightly today,
well, quite moderate. we didnt speak i guess.
we did say hi, but not much communication?
oh well, if that is what its going to be like, then i guess, i have to go with the flow. i dont wanna do anymore i do hurt anyone.

there were jokes today in class.
VANS= WANS.
VECTORS= WECTORS.
if you know, laugh, u dont its okay.
i got to go do WECTORS now byee

2010-04-27T04:59:00.001-07:00

things get worse for me by the day.
i am basically, failing everything.
amath, emath.
at least i passed physics test.
i hate math. i am begining to wonder if i should just drop math.LOL. but of course, its impossible.
i dont know if i am stressed or whatsover. but i just feel like breaking down. i want to, but i know i cant. i have to strong. but i dont know how to. probably , its just a part of my life. and its not nice to be me.

wanna watch MAO'S LAST DANCER.

2010-04-26T06:53:00.001-07:00

screw my life man. seriously.
i fail my amath again.
for like the dont know how "many-th" time!
and now , i have to bloody go through a tough time for math, i really wonder if i am cut out to do amath, argh.
i went to the library to mug today. met jiong ray there! hahah, we spoke for a long long time, catching up with him, abt OBS and stuff, hahh. missed him!

ok, got to go.
fml.

@sakshi: will tell you!
@neville: nothing.

2010-04-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

things again, havent been going well already.
more things coming on tomorrow.
if people know, they will know how i feel now.
i dont know how to describe how i am feeling now.
so many things happened lately.
i seriously cant be bothered anymore.
a walk to remember? my walk, its just so fucked up.

2010-04-24T00:23:00.001-07:00

okay, i have officially screwed my vectors test today. people say that its easy, while me and nichelle. go , oh shit. screwed. we're gonna go for breakfast at 5.30am in the morning, then go for math at 6am in the morning. LOL. its so gonna be that way. so screwed.
argh, hate this. really really hate this.

@morgan: ya, look at the "bright" side. the bright sidee.

2010-04-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

okay,
Things didnt go too well today.
got eff-ing scolded, come on lar. whisper only right, and not as though he is talking about something really that important,and he scolded. what the heck.
was supposed to solve some problems early this morning, but the issue was still there. guess it takes alot of time to get over the problem.
had chinese and math tutorial after school, went for dance a short while after that. i miss dance soo much,the sec1s were wearing the new dance tee, while sec2s wore the old onee. i miss dancee so so so much, i wanna go back and dance again. haix. but cant, stepped down alreadyy.
there's vectors test tmr. and i had tuition just for it, i have really got to do pass it, if not, my head will go rolling down. hahah, alrights, got to go rest, good bye.

@unknown; thanks;

2010-04-21T04:09:00.001-07:00

everything's so screwed lately.
i screwed up all my tests, including CL oral today. like shit man,bloody oral.
then something happened at school today, eff-ing screwed. things went all hay-wired, and things didnt turn for the better either. like seriously. FML.
i dont wanna blog anymore, i m no longer in the eff-ing mood now. SO GOODBYE. like anyone's even gonna read this.

i dont know how to face you. i know you are trying really hard, and so am i.
i am sorry for what i did, i know that neither one of us, can control our emotions, but we have to.
we need to learn how to.i'm sorry, i just dont know how to face you. and i am merely just running away from the situation.
and whenever i see that you are like that, i feel even more guilty.
it gets harder and harder every time.
i feel that i cant even breathe sometimes. whats wrong with me, and whats wrong with my fucking screwed up life. i hate my life. i hate this.

2010-04-20T04:25:00.000-07:00

i met my MENTOR for math today for the first time! hahaha, rather nice guy. he's from Thailand i think, he's the same age as us, he must be damn smart, and he's in JC1 or JC2 i dont know. hahhaa, i asked him about vectors,and he had problems with it! DAMN!hahah, nevermind. it was more of a fun session today with that tutor. marcus asked for his number when he isnt even involved. HAHAHAH.

alrights. had some IFD today. played some game in class. YAY PEGASUS WONNN :D hahha, its a good year for PEGASUS. well, i dont know about the following years, but oh wells. who cares. gonna graduate this yr! gonna get my ass outta this school! anyway, the teachers want us outta this school. HAHAHA.

was pondering whether to go for dinner to celebrate KWAN'S birthday, since we had our mentoring till like 5.45pm? LOL. well, i couldnt go, cause i had dinner home. SORRY KWAN! i swear i'd celebrate a belated one with you! ;D hahha.
so i went home, while nichelle and marcus went to "CELEBRATE" for him.
well,
still,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID KWAN! hahahah.
kays, i gotta go studyy. good bye.

2010-04-19T03:06:00.000-07:00

GOT TO GO STUDYYY.
gonna be a study freak from now on, say HELLO TO STUDY FREAK CYNTHIA!
hahahah.
i got my voice back!
yes! and i can finally singg:D
and screammm :D
gonna start irritating people again:D
loves,
CYNTHIA. EVIL. hahaha

2010-04-18T00:47:00.000-07:00

boreddd of studying!
gosh. i havent even started raelly studying, and yet i am complaining i am bored of studying. more like bored of having tuitions everyday. well , almost.
life's tough in sec4. its irritating.
no more ccas, mondays and fridays suck to the core.
no dance. and all we do is, STUDY; do Amath. do more math. stupid math. i should bloody get started on studying,but my mom never lets me out to study with my friends. bloody bloody hell. she said it takes up alot of travelling timeee! and its best to study in the comfort of my own homee,but come on, i am gettting sick of my hse, for like the past 10yrs of my life, i am stuck in this same house! get me outta hereeee;i wanna go out to study. NNOOOOOO. gosh. life sucks to the max. always.

sexy voice

2010-04-17T03:32:00.000-07:00

hellos. i have officially become ROSY. hahah, given by morgan and afiq. cause of my sexy voice i have now. i caught a major flu on tuesday, no like monday evening, after crying so much in dance, hahhah. then i lost my voice on wednesday. hahh. and i havent recovered yet ok, hahah. NOT YET. i got a freaking high fever on tuesday, like 38.7 degree celcius. and i went to see the doctor twice in a week, so much medication to consume man.
sick sick. coughing like mad still. LOL, HAHHAAH. >.<
had amath tutorial today.
so tired.
gonna go resttt.

2010-04-13T02:58:00.000-07:00

EMOTIONAL MUCH?
no, its just what we dancers do.
yesterday, the sec4s stepped down from our duties from dance.
before the ms lim or ms tan could say anything, i saw mslim tearing a little, and subsequently, here comes watertap voon :P
certificates were given out to sakshi,sharmaine,me,cheryl,nichelle,nadhirah,meichi, and jvian, i think.
vice-president,president, its all time to let go and step down.
the juniors gave us little notes, all in a nice box, and cupcakes! i cried so much yesterday. and i have never cried so much like this before. it was simply, just so touching. every senior, except Joanne and Sharmaine didnt cry. just because they went through it before. the seniors really cried, so badlyy. and we still took pictures.
i love krdt.
we cry. we laugh. we get scolded together. we perform.
thats what dance in kr is all about. UNITY. and we're never ever gonna get a chance to stand at the barre and talk during our barreworks, dance with the juniors, and have fun with everyone ever again. however, these memories would always be kept in our hearts. KRDT, i love every single one of you. those little notes, so meaningful. cupcakes with our names? every single bite i took, reminded me of everyone of you. thank you krdt. i love you guys to the max.

todayy, david gave the seniors a hand-written letter.
just as i was reading, i left my tears swelling up in my eyes again. it was just, so touching. every single detail abt me and him, from sec1 to now. nichelle almost cried. LOL. HAHHAH.

now, maybe because i cried so much yesterday, i have a major sore throat and a high fever.
thanks dancerrs! but in a good way :P

got to go rest. i wonder if i can turn up at school tmr. hope i cann.

2010-04-10T06:52:00.001-07:00

@sakshi: i am already uploading it!

KR 10th anniversary

2010-04-10T00:19:00.000-07:00

yesterday, i could say that it was the best time of my life in KR!

it was KR's 10 anniversary, though its just 10 years old (=.="), the performing arts worked super hard for it ok! especially dancers! HAHHA.

CAMWHORED SOOO MUCH YESTERDAY! HAHAHHA.

many of the dancers were not feeling well yesterday. including me. i felt so dead. so tired in the afternoon when i first started my warm-ups. after a while , things got better. MSTAN AND MS LIM TREAT EGG TARTS! special kind of egg tarts from IMM ! HHAHAHA.

then we ran through our piece twice. then we went for technical rehearsal. then went for makeup! HAHAHA. everything was so memorable.

when it was performance time, everyone was so tense up. we did meditate before we went up to perform. it was probably my last time doing that with krdt. seniors came back. well some.

while we were performing i could see my friends, though nervous but yet i was enjoying myself. really really enjoying, i love the dance!

after that, we went camwhore-ing. HAHAH, took so many nice pictures. so much to remember.

went to west coast park with morgan after that.

then mom fetched me home from there.

thank you krdt. you guys have brought my so much joy and laughter. love you guys to the max.

2010-04-08T04:03:00.000-07:00

had quite a day today at school.
went to school early, did a little rehears-ing for some awards day.
Got my award :D HAHAH
yay.
its a real hot day today;
tmr's awards day already!
10th anniversary for krdt. they made the school so freaking grand. LOLS.
gonna camwhore tmr! :D
i'll miss krdt so so much.
their laughter, their bimbotic talks, hahhh. we're so bimbotic. HAHAHA.
But i wont go back until MYE's over. got to concentrate on studying, and then go back. so that the juniors who are taking over wont be so "UGH" , like Dovedy said. HAHHAHA.
ok, i am going off already. goodbye.
KRDT <3
and the picture is not the most recent one. :P

2010-04-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

there was dancee today,
so tired. i did my chinese and i did my amath!
hhaha,
gonna step down from dancee soon. so sad. haix. got to go. byebye

@morgan; how could u do this to ur girlfriend! (:

2010-04-06T00:27:00.000-07:00

was in the art room in school, with janell, morgan,huijuan,xuejun and farah! HAHAHAH. hi!

hhhahaha, morgan wrote that.

LOL. now damn sian. just now went for photo-taking for some awards thingy, wear some damn tie. damn irritating sia. LOL. more like very suffocating thing. HAHAHAH.

am gonna go for lunch with them and go home later on to use my mom's laptop.

spencer's complaining.

i have to retake my bloody heymath test.

OK ALL THOSE ARE MEANT TO BE POSTED UP JUST NOW.

now i m back home, finally. gosh i m so tired. lols.

i still have to study for vectors test tmr, plus SBQ- SS, plus POA.screw lar! argh. nevermind, no point complaning. lols.so goodbye.

@morgan: hahhah. ok fine, scared people steal ur linkk? HAHHA.

@ilya: yea, totally agree. its hard, and with memories always stuck in ur head, its so freaking hard to erase it off my head.

its hard to erase u off. why. its freaking hard. what so good about u. i really dont know. i dont even understand why i still think abt you. about our past. memories. its really not as easy as people say. but it all doesnt matter anymore. u dont care abt me, i dont care abt u. its as simple as that. its that simple.

2010-04-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

i guess its time for us to let go, and step down.
times flies so fast this year. its like a moment i am still in sec3, the next i am already 1/4 through sec4. i wish that the clock can be turned back to when i was in sec2. the innocent little me, that obeyed almost everything. but yet, i think twice, and i realised , whatever that whoever i am now, is a much happier me i suppose? having slightly more freedom of speeh, or in general freedom, and of course, being a youth. well the last yr of being a youth to be exact.

i will miss my dance instructors and dance teachers. i will miss krdt, especially SHAWN YAP. hahaha. funny guy. its time to get started to study already. so i guess, its time for all the sec4s to grow up. and get serious about the Os. got to go, study. hhahha. byebye. like anyone's even gonna read this. blogging for the fun of it.

@morgan: oh, how come no links?

its time for me to let go of you, since there's no response. why bother thinking and waiting any longer. but i dont know how to let go. teach me how. could anyone, any soul teach me how to let go?

IGNOREE THIS POSTTT

2010-04-04T05:10:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging for quite a while already.
quite a number of things happened lately. and i dont know how to face them seriously.
sometimes, when you need to break down, you cant. you have to stay strong to face them, if you refuse to, the issue would come back to haunt you.
but it never happens in my case. never. ever.
i try to face the problem, but what happens? things probably goes worse.
stupid isnt it; sometimes life's just such a fucker. really hate it.

Have been to much into dance lately, till all my results dropped tremendously. and Mr Asan even said that he wants to talk to me. talk about what? rebellious? come on, who would even believe that i am rebellious. only idiots would believe that. oh well, maybe i am :P hahaha. ok, lameness.
been so much into dance lately. for the past week, its a full week of dance. i didnt have to time to study. thats why my phy and chem test would be so freaking screwed. and i already know it. i dont need anyone to tell me.

i am only hoping, probably dreaming, that i can have a day before i really get down to studying, a day to go shopping, and someone who can listen to me, and really let me say everything out.

i am more bothered about the fact that mr asan wants to speak to me. i hope he doesnt call my mom and tell her a whole lot of crap. knowing my mom, she would come home , nag at me. i dont want her to worry either. stupid crap.

i have been getting all pmsy lately. whats wrong with me? is it just me, or is it that i have become weirder and weirder each day. and somehow, i dont seem to know myself anymore. its like, i have changed, become a different person already. whats getting into me. its like, i make myself happy to hide my misery. what a stupid way to run away from reality. but trust me. its works.

2010-03-29T05:59:00.000-07:00

Today was a rather-OK day for meee.
finally got my thoughts straight. no matter how many times i fall, i am still gonna stand back up and be who i am. i wont go emo anymore. cause there's no point. whats the point of crying over spilled milk right? i have decided to face the fact that i probably have no brains, no talent, no nothing. But there's one thing i have, and thats LIFE. i learnt to live my life, the way i want it. and not to let things control me. its always mind over body. i never believed in that, but now, i definitely do.

Today i ran 2.4km! wow. didnt really improve , but well at least i improved. 17:36. damn it man. i gotta do better next time. :D
then i did my physics test after school. damn it.
screw! HHAHAHA.
then had dance.
dance wasnt that bad today :D but we did splits. on CHAIRS. like GYMNASTICS. and omg. i could do :Dyay.
happy :D

ok there's more dance tmr. there's rehearsals! goodbye, i m so tired.

@morgan: LOVE YOU TOO :D

2010-03-28T01:10:00.001-07:00

MET MORGAN by coincidence at vivo yesterday :D hahaha.
almost recovered :D

2010-03-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

finally, feeling so much better after being bed-ridden for about 2days?
went for POA this morning, though i still wasnt feeling at my best.
after POA, went for dance.
luckily i didnt miss anything for danceee :D
apparently, i could dance! but was kinda tiring. haix.
then stayed back to some props stuff, and parents came to fetch me home.
so tired.

@ilya: hahahah. thanks thanks :D yea BLOOD SISTER! hahahah.

2010-03-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

managed to get hold of morgan earlier today.
found out that i had really missed a lot at school. really miss school.
both my dance instructors are here today. and i am not at dance. seriously. screw man, i wanna go for danceeee! (:

when i was talking to morgan, marcus and afiq came on the phone too.
hahaha. marcus made me laugh, hahaha, made my day. hahhaha. thanks marcus:D

@ilya voon: thanks for wishes, yup, food poisoning, that's why u didnt see me lately. got miss me? HAHAHAH.

2010-03-25T19:46:00.000-07:00

didnt turn up and school yesterday, and today as well.
i am bloody bed-ridden. i got Food poisoning. and a really bad one too.
vomitted 3times yesterday. woke up at 3am yesterday morning due to a terrible stomach cramps, not because i have my period, but because of food poisonining. i dont like this, really i dont.
i rather go to school and take my CHINESE MYE.
i rather go to school and get scolded.
i dont like this at all.
i cant wait to go back to school for tutorials tmr.
furthermore, i have dance today and i am missing it.
tomorrow i still have dance. i dont like this!
i want to go back to school.
thanks to those who sms-ed me. appreciate it lots :D

@morgan: thanks. i miss you!

2010-03-23T02:42:00.001-07:00

Something i once loved, a passion i had for,
yet now, full of phobia, and hatred for it.
Emotional much? its probably just me. and my emotions. and my thoughts.
but its just not fair. when you work hard for something. u dont even get what you want. no rewards. so whats the point? might as well drop it. its better off that way.

screwed up much

2010-03-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a freaking bad day for me.
PE was so screwed.
seating arrangment? sucked to the core.
Dance? things got even worse. now, i cant wait to freaking step down. i cant stand them anymore. a noisy bunch of bimbos, and sometimes, i think myself as one.
after dance? even more screwed.
i dont wish to talk abt it.
get lost.

studying?

2010-03-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

HAHHAHA..

ok this week has really been a busy week for me. HAHHA..

ok today i went to school at like 7.30am this morning for POA? it was freezing cold, i didnt want to wake up, hahhaa, but i still turned up in the end. then after POA, went to Dance Horizon at Sembawang to return the chinese dance costumes, then went back home for tuition. then. went out again!

Met morgan at Jurong East Mrt at 3.15pm. went down to West Mall. we went to walk around, go to the library, hoping to find a seat there to study and finish our humanities work, but the library was damn small. GOSH. then Gates came along, then we decided to head down to Macdonal's at Bukit Batok, and we got a huge table and we actually started studying. really studying! we were doing our work, then we got tired, HAHAH. we started to fool around, hahahah. i laughed so much today at macdonals. HAHHAAH.MORGAN KEPT MAKING ME LAUGH! Damn it.

then we "studied" hahah. BUT I ACTUALLY MANAGED TO DO SOME HOMEWORK! which i didnt quite expect. i wanna do it again with morgan and gates, probably i will pull someone else along. HAHHAHA. no lar. probably we wont have the time to do it anymore, but i still yearn for it :D

then my dad came over to Westmall to look for me, had SAKAE SUSHI for dinnerrr :D HAHHAHA. daddy was so nice to treat me : D

then i went home , and i came home to do more homework. how sad.

its now 1am in the morning, and i am still not sleeping. i m gonna sleep till 9am tmr:D

i saw so many things today, and it brought me back to us, our past. why. i dont want to be stuck in this small bubble, a bubble i cant seem to burst. sometimes i wonder, were we like that back then? if we were, i must be the happiest person on earth, loving life to the max. and now, i am hating life to the max. those memories are beautiful, but they are not as beautiful as what we really were. i need to isolate myself. probably hide somewhere, where no one can find me. a place where u and i have been, and really think. think deep. really deep. probably i would fall into a hole as deep as Alice did, and i wont be able to climb back up, or even wake up from this dream.

2010-03-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

i had a very tiring day today.
gonna go PHOTO-taking tmr ! hahahha. hope that i can go, hahahah. so tired.
my last full day of dance , from 9am - 5pm. i will miss dance, really. i am already missing it.
haix.
alrights, its already 12.18am now. i should get some sleep; going to go for POA tomorrow morning. nights.

the "social" 4e7?

2010-03-18T07:52:00.000-07:00

=> KEEGAN'S FACE!

=>morgan,nichelle,me

=> this is funny :P

=> polaroid picture taken by Afiq :D

=> group picture at dinner at PASTAMANIA:D

ok, lets see. things went kinda screwed in the morning.

woke up then wash up, then ate breakfast, then rushed to ShengSiong to get some stuff, then rushed back home. So happen to meet morgan on the way back, then we rushed back to my hse together, and ate and rushed down to meet the rest at Queenstown MRT- Gates,Keegan,Louis,Nichelle,Karen,Marcus,Samuel and Afiq.

then went down to Raffles Place, and then to Marina Bay, met Isabel and Hoeyan there, took a shuttle bus to Marina Barrage. and the worst thing was that, it was bloody raining today, so we couldnt fly our kites! And we really bought kites, OMG. HAHAHA. we reached there, then we couldnt go up to fly our kites, then we sat in a circle, and played "truth or dare". It was rather funny actually, stupid dares, HAHAHAH. that part was fun. then we took the bus back to the Marina Bay MRT, kinda emo-ed on the bus, was thinking about some stuff. probably only morgan knows. HAHAHAH.

ok then, we took a train again, to Dhouby Ghaut, and went to Grand Cathay, to watch "Alice in the Wonderland!" sat with keegan, HAHAHA. and morgan beside me tooo :D during the movie, i found out so many things, and saw alot alot of things. HAHHAHA. but that triggered me too. OH AND IT WAS FREAKING FREEZING IN THE THEATRE, I WAS SHIVERING TILL I TEARED MAN. hahaha, ridiculus much? maybe, but its true! HAHAHHAAH. after that, Nichelle, Karen, Marcus left. Isabel left earlier during the movie. then went over to Plaza Singapura, keegan went to find his birthday present that he wanted to buy, then went to PASTAMANIA TO EAT!! then we went home. Keegan and Afiq bus-ed home. the rest of us took the train, some in fifferent directions. HAHAHA. i got home at 8.50 something, which was considered late man. HAHAHHAH.

ohya, and gates said what, " the social 4E7", and the " anti-social 4E7" lols, i dont even remember.

ok so home i am now:D

had quite a lot of fun today.although the rain was quite a spoiler (:

lots of funny pictures, hahha

GONNA BE ON FB :D

and morgan posted me a question today, which really got me thinking. i thought and thought about it. and up till now, i still dont know the answer. i am still as confused as before. and i saw so many things today, that made all the memories come back again, i want to cry, but i cant. those beautiful

memories, came all the way back. flashbacks.i need to talk to someone.

2010-03-17T04:50:00.000-07:00

today, i had dance.
today, i found out about something really terrible.
today, i know that we, are all going to be in hot soup when school reopens. gosh.
ok, enough of the today-thingy.
lets see,
had amath today.
gosh i got to go , BYEBYE

2010-03-16T00:54:00.000-07:00

BORED. had 3hrs of amath today. was supposed to sit with gates, but mr raja changed our seats, damn it. i m sitting with kristof now :D quite ok , hahahah. but still, i miss sitting with gates. HAHAHA. band members not around again, haix, MORGAN! haix. after tutorial went for lunch @ BBQ chicken with gates,morgan,hoon,samuel,ernald,zul1 and zul2,hahaha, dont know how to spell their full name:D and Quenten! HAAHAHA. quite fun, then when ernald ask me not to turn, i go and turn, and i screamed! so loud man, HAHAHAH. ok , then after lunch, i rushed home with samuel, took the same bus and train as him and chiong home to do my work, sian, later got tuition. ok off for tuition, bye.

PICTURES TAKEN FROM MY EOS 500D

2010-03-15T02:17:00.001-07:00

more pictures, but i m kinda lazy. HAHAHH.

2010-03-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

WENT FOR CHEM TUTORIAL TODAY!
hahha. ok. i reached sch at like 9.40am?
ms tan kinda late anyways,
btw, the time i reached sch, morgan had to go! she had band. damn it, then ah juan never come, and i m left all alone (:
man, thats so sad. then Gates came to sit next to me. thanks thanks Gates:D
then went to WEST COAST PLAZA with Afiq , went to Starbucks! i was apparently studying there, HAHAHAH. taught Afiq differentiation. kind of revising differentiationn. then went over to POPULAR to get some books, then went off. met gates at market bus stop, went to Clementi central, then went to eat lunch? more like me seeing him eat, cause i already ate at Starbucks, a grande Cameral Frappuccino + chocolate muffin :D HAHHAHA. full man. but now at 3.30pm, i m hungry again.

then after that, i came home :D
home sweet home:D trying to upload pics for EOS 500D , need to install so many things (: so troublesome.

2010-03-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

i am currrently using my mom's new laptop:D
went to IT FAIR last night, but i didnt buy my CANON EOS 500D! damn. cause the deal there wasnt even good at all lar, pls. damn expensive lor.
luckily, i went to SIMLIMSQUARE this morning, after my piano lesson;D
then i bought my EOS 500D! yay, got additional lens somemore, hahhah. i have 3 different lens :D YAY. ok ok, no more bragging about my CAMERA! hahahha. ok ok.

went for GISELLE 2 victoria theatre :D hahhaa. yay, it was so nice :D
then camwhored along the way with NICHELLE and SAKSHI :D hahaha, with my EOS 500D hahha. ok, pictures will post up next time :D hahahaha.

there's chemistry tutorial tmr! sian, need to go sch, damn sian. haix(:

@morgan: HAHHA. i was busy having tuition, i was even more busy :P oh, ok fine, EDY, HAHHAH.
@ILYA VOON: HAHAHA. hello my other half ! :D i love ya too!

2010-03-12T06:47:00.000-08:00

WOO! HAPPY SIA!

today was really good.

although it was my "lucky" day. hahhaha. OMG OMG OMG. HAPPPY!

went for breakfast in the morning @mac! with morgan,gates,keegan,kaweng,ernald,and i forgot that one guy de name , HAHHAHA. OOPS SORRY! HHHA.

then went to school for hse practice! HAHAHA. CHEER WAS SUPER FUN WITH THE SEC5S! WE WERE ALL SO HIGH. more like the tchoukball players were freaking high. i shouted so much, that i cant even speak properly now! HAHAHHA. but its all worth it :D

after that, finished house practice. went for LUNCH with morgan and samuel at mac again! HAHHAA. then gates,ernald, quenten and louis came to look for us :D then we went to cycle :D HHAHHAA. ok then went to CLEMENTI STADIUM! thats when the "fun" started. sat at 4E7, then the unluckiest thing happened to me and Fatin. and i dont wish to talk abt it. it was so OMFG. HAHAHAH. but it happened at that moment, and thinking of it now, it wasnt all that bad :D but i was still freaking UNLUCKY! HAHAHHA. ask all the people around us, they would know :D

ok then went to PEGASUS~ then had some althelete's march past, which was rather stupid. did some olympic oath, which i still dont know :P

then,ilya,cheryl,amalina(sec5),shikin and i lead the cheer, which made me really lose my voice! BUT IT WAS DAMN FUN. everything was like YAY YAY YAY! hahahah. it really was fun :D ok, then we cheered for our other teams.pegasus fought really well today :D

ok,then came the tchoukball match. all of us, freaked out before the match. we were so nervous! HAHAH. and the most unlucky thing is that, when the nosiest people are going to play their match, the cheer competition had to be judged. haix. but we cheered from where we were, hahhha :D that was way fun :D hahah. ok we played with our best shot! and YES, WE WON ! HAHAHAH. yay yay. WOOT! HAHAHHA. OMG OMG OMG OMG. i still cant believe we won.

ok, anyways, it was a good game with lyra. GO LYRA! 3 CHEERS For LYRA! HIP HIP HOORAY!HIP HIP HOORAY!HIP HIP HOORAY! ok, then we gathered as usual to receive our tropheys. OMG OMG OMG.

then most shocking thing was, auriga won the cheer competition? HAHAH. ok joking, they did well. HHAHAHA :D really well. they were rather enthu!! HAHHA. ok,

now for the main point.

WHO IS THE OVERALL CHAMPION FOR THIS YEAR.

it was quite shocking to me. but well i m still happy about it!

PEGASUS! GO PEGASUS!

congrats to the other houses who did well too!

they really did better than us u know, hahha.

but finally, for once in history,before i leave krss, i made an achievement in KRO! yay, its a good way to end my last kro in kr. i'll miss it for sure, i m already missing it(:

more importantly, i miss my tchoukball mates, especially ILYA :D hahaha.

yay yay, yay HAHAHA. MIGHTY PEGASUS!

ok anyways, after that, went to find morgan. then left with gates,morgan,ernald,keegan and hoon. went to 7-eleven, hoon went to get a drink. then walked back to the market bus stop. ernald and hoon left for home, keegan dashed for his bus. HAHAH. ok, then gates left, and i went opposite to meet my mom,and so yea. i m home now. happyyy:D

oh ya, i m going to watch GISELLE THIS SUNDAY! CANT WAITTTT :D

@someone whom i know: i wont update it :D

@DOVEDY: i just blogged about it :D

*pictures from ilya!

when we walked next to each other, i felt it again. the feeling came back again.it was just like last time,that feeling i loved so much.it came back again.as i see u walking further and further away,i felt as though i could collapse.maybe its just me,its definitely me.i miss those moments so much.

2010-03-11T02:51:00.000-08:00

today was science day!
no math today, yay! saturday's getting nearer and nearer. means my camera's gonna get closer and closer to meee! :D hahha.
ok enough of that. oh, during recess everything was so screwed. even after school. whats the world coming to? whats the 6 of us coming to? its just gonna go " POOF" soon.

today was rather relaxed. we had POA in aircon room, because mr wong couldnt switch the aircon off when he went in :D hahahha. there is sec3 PTI today. oh and POA tutorial was cancelled. hahha. we slacked in class. it was fun , there was : morgan,gates,samuel,keegan,marcus and karen. hahha. funny!

after that, we went to market to slack even more.
and somehow, i dont know how, i became keegan's wife. hahhaha. cause marcus was with karen, morgan was with gates,then left me samuel and keegan. HAHAH. so somehow i dont know how, i became keegan's wife. HAHAHAH. then hoon and ernald came shortly after. then they left, then ya... went home with samuel and marcus. marcus was so emo. worried for him. haix.
oh yay, i can go for breakfast tmr. yippe. hahhaha. ok, going to do some POA now, goodbye.

@zongyuan: well, COME TRY HIM AND U'LL SEE .

when you sat next to me, the feeling came back, and it was overwhelming. everytime we looked at each other at that very moment, that same feeling came back. is it just me or what? i dont like going through this feeling, its painful, and it always hurts me deeper every single time. i want to speak to you, but we cant seem to communicate always.every single time, we would silently walk past each other. i always want to turn back to look once more, but i couldnt. i had to act as though i didnt care anymore. its hard, so painful, as though a sharp needle went through my heart, and the more i try to pull it out, the more painful it gets.

2010-03-10T03:00:00.001-08:00

HAH. went to school early this morning. it was raining so heavily and i had a great time sleeping.but i still had to wake up eventually. didnt go for Amath this morning. was too tired.
i screwed my A math test up, and i was falling asleep during amath test. hahha.
ok.had a math tutorial. also had chem tutorial. nothing to talk abt today.. slacked alot today.

@ray: thanks :D
@morgan: ya, damn what sia.

2010-03-09T03:15:00.001-08:00

GOSH. i ran away from A math today. HAHHA. i couldnt take it anymore. anymore of amath and i'm gonna die. had a math tutorial today. argh. sian.
somemore tmr got differentiation test! DAMN DAMN DAMN. i hate this. i really hate this. he said he is gonna ramp it up more. damn damn damn. FREAK!

{ we're gonna get A1 for emath and a math and F9 for the rest. BUT 4E7 ALL LIKE THAT.}

[ if you dont work hard now, you later go fly kite. so u better dont bloody give me your attitude! ]

and now,
i m going to fly kite.
there would be 4E7 '10 KITE CLUB.
only opened to 4E7 '10 pupils. HAHAHAHAH.
HELP ME. save me from this.
and he said, we're gonna have amath almost everday for march hols. damn damn damn!! i hate this. i even have to go to sch early in the morning at like 6am on mondays and wednesdays, from 6am to 7.15am, we're gonna have amath. and wednesday, is our MATH DAY. whereby i have like more than 4hrs of freaking a math. i'm going nuts.

goodbye. off to do dy/dx= differentiation.

2010-03-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

didnt come online yesterday cause was busy having tuition and doing freaking amath. argh, hate a math. HHAHH.

on sat evening, went to SIM LIM SQUARE to see CAMERA! HAHAH. SO NICE :D cant wait to buyyy :D

today, it was so screwed. i woke up at 5.45am, went to sch for math, early in the morning. i reached sch at like 6.40am or something like that, went to do amath with MR RAJA. HAHAH. time to start the momentem. on wed, i also going to come at 6.30am. to do AMATH. WOW.
PE today was so screwed . everything de-proved!NO!!! and we did like 94 sets of 8 jumping jacks. so tired. then during dance , things went even worse. dont want to talk abt it.

there's more math tmr. NOOO. screw the math man. good bye.

2010-03-05T23:24:00.000-08:00

had PTI yesterday,

omg it was so screwed. freaking screwed. had dance too.

i so dont want to talk abt yesterday. cried till i had no more tears to fall. no wonder i had swollen eyes this morning.

i bet every single sec4 had a bad time yesterday. probably many of us cried.

whatever the case, its all over now. so who cares; i mean, whats the point of crying over spilled milk?

dont even think i can go out anymore, not to mention even use the computer. i m sneaking to use the computer now, can u believe that? its my computer and i m sneaking to use it, HOW IRONIC! i'm gonna get my WIFI on my phone fixed, and so, i can use internet anywhere, as long as there's connection. hahhaah. Mr Raja told my mom to lock up the damn internet! NO NO NO NO!

cant do that, i cant live without computer. i bet everyone got the same comment from him. damn it.

went for Amath tutorial today. so tired. now i still have to study. fml.

oh, and mr koh SL also talked to my mom. damn it. bad bad bad day. hate PTIs.

it screws my life up.

@zongyuan: whatever.

2010-03-04T02:05:00.000-08:00

went for piano examm today! it was rather screwed at first, but slowly things went kinda smoothly. before i left the studio, the examiner told me " well done cynthia". i wonder now, if it was real or was it being sarcastic. HAHAHHA. LOLS. oh wells, whats done is done. lets just wait for the results :D

went back to school for tutorial. seee i so guai. oh today, i sat next to weyhau. and he was so retarded. i expected him to talk alot alot alot, but appparently, he didnt. HHAH. IMPROVEMENT FROM LAST YR IN DEED. HAHHHA. ok that was insulting for him. HAHAA.

had physics pratical tutorial. combined humanities tutorial was cancelled and i dont even know why. and i missed POA corrections of error test! DAMN. haix.

there's lunchtime concert tmr! AHAHAA. no longer nervous. and i'm hungry now :D

oh and correction of buying my canon camera, its next week, during the IT FAIR. YAY.

@ZONGYUAN: OMG. shut uppp!!

2010-03-03T01:54:00.000-08:00

LETS SEEE.

today screwed much?

got back my humanities. failed SS, passed Geog by 1 mark.

damn it.

supposed to turn up for lunchtime concert rehearsals today, but didnt go, didnt want to see certain* people at the piano. anyway, no one accompany me. so yea. lunchtime concert this friday! AHH. can skip chinese tutorial, hahahah.

TMR'S MY PIANO EXAM! OH NO. freaking out terribly now. got to practice like siao later. hahahah.

had amath tutorial. did differentiation. dont like product rule. actually its easy, but i dont like simplifying it. i went to ask naymyo, saying,"eh, smart one , teach me'' in chinese, he told me, " dont call me smart one''. HAHAHHA. well. he's smart! HHAHAHHAA.

oh oh oh! i'm gonna get my CANON EOS 500D this weekendddddd! HAHAHAH. cant wait cant wait!

@DOVEDY: hahahah. LOL. NATHAN? LOL

@ZONGYUAN: what do u mean by that man!

2010-03-02T00:04:00.000-08:00

Lets see,

things were not good yesterday.

i got back most of my results. scored freaking low for all. practically failed all except for Chinese(a mere pass- HOW COULD I?? ITS MY FREAKING BEST SUBJECT!), EL. Emath and Amath both failed terribly.PHY- failed by just damn 1 mark!

had dance yesterday too. oh. msviv was so nice ytd, its so not like her. HHAHAA. Cant wait till she gets back to her normal way , and i really wonder how the sec1s would react to her. LOL.

today was a better day for me i guess. got back CHEM! hahahah. that one, i was really happy. i got 40/50! HAHAH. A1~ but for combined science i only got B4! damn. one more mark to B3! but its ok, i am quite contended alr. i'm gonna work harder for my sciences :D

as for humanities, havent gotten back yet. hope i do well. i studied damn hard for it.

there's tutorial and rehearsals for lunchtime concert tmr! HAHAHHA. YAY YAY YAY. happy happy. but i m thinking of dropping Amath. even my mom wants me to drop Amath. darn it.

@DOVEDY: HAHAHA. serious? what series is it alr? i have been watching it quite regularly :D

@neville: dont worry.i'm fine :D HAHAHHHA.

@Zongyuan: OF COURSE MY ATTITUDE NO.1# lar! HAHAHHA.

2010-02-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

life certainly doesnt go well when you have lots of work undone, when u have an upcoming piano exam, and when u have failed ur math, knowing that u would fail ur other subjects too.

hi, welcome to my bloody blog :D
ok, that was lame.
went out yesterday..came home rather late. mom went shopping=.= she bought so much clothes! i only bought a dress, no fair.
went for piano lesson today! YAY. no need for extra lessons. going for exam on thursday. kinda scary. haix. ok off to slack even more , good bye.

to sean: hey thick-skinned ! hahha. its not all that scary, hey my results maybe bad, but my ATTITUDE = #1! haahhaha. jokes :D

2010-02-27T00:29:00.000-08:00

went to sch for Amath today as usual. but i sat with afiq today! hahaha. we werent really listening, but we did our work! cause we were talking about MUSIC!! DANCE!! HAHAHA. thats probably the only thing i have in common with him , HAHHHAAHHA! ok. after tutorial , went home . bathed. ate lunch. and i m gonna go out soon!! HAHHAA. i got to go "rehearse" at the exam place for my PIANO EXAM. so scared. argh. + with lunchtime concert coming up, its really stressing me out.

i havent told my mom about my results for emath yet. i dont dare to break the news to her. she would probably start yelling at me. argh.
reality's harsh. its a real pain in the ass.

going to RAFFLES CITY first! go see MUSIC AND SOME PHOTOGRAPY exibition! hahha. then go to Adelphi for my "rehearsal". :D goodbye.

oh and goodbye WORLD!

to dovedy: HAHAH. no worries. i wouldnt say it here. its so. BLAH. HAHAHHA.
to Neville: thanks for your encourage. dont have to worry about me:D
to Sean: YESSSS!!! HE STAYS BELOW ME! HAHAHHAHA !

2010-02-26T05:19:00.000-08:00

KILL ME NOW.

I DONT CARE WHERE YOU'RE GONNA DO IT, WHY U'RE GONNA DO IT, AND HOW U'RE GONNA DO IT. JUST GET RID OF ME SOMEBODY!

ok, that was SOOO pms-y. "pms-ing" is my trademark. LOLS. ok lame.

you know what. life sucks. reality's such a bitch, its like something you dont want to have; cause it betrays you every single time u do something, every time u work hard for something, and nothing, NOTHING, comes back in return. FUCKING NOTHING. WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO? people work hard, but dont get returns. We always talk about democracy;fairness- So Social Studies. but when you work hard for something, at least u get paid for it. but in school, ur teachers think of u this way, " oh , u didnt study for it right. so serves u right for getting those kind of marks. u deserve them." how they heck do they know that u didnt work hard for it. they dont know anything. seriously.

why am i saying all this?

because.

of.

only.

one.

damn.

reason.

failed.

my.

emath.

after.

working.

hard. for. it.

eople say no pain no gain. i went through the pain of having tuition 5hrs each sunday. going through all sorts of critisisms my teachers give me. i dont mind the critising. seriously. it helps me grow as a person. but sometimes, if u despise someone, just say it , instead of beating around the bush. like come on man. NO LIFE.

had amath paper today. as usual, knowing that i screwed it up, i simply cant be bothered abt math anymore. i dont get math. its so stupid sometimes.

then had usual classes. had chinese tutorial.

had dance. finally wille came today! great. lols. hahaha. learn really cool movements today! HAHAHA. good good. lOLS.

ok so home i am now. so tired. and i'm getting sickkk!

like seriously. fuck my life man.

2010-02-25T01:33:00.000-08:00

I freaking screwed up poa paper up today. seriously.

ahh.after sch went to MACDONAL'S after sch, with morgan,gates,ernald, thiri and all. was quite fun there. but along the way to macdonal's something happened, but its over anyways. i cant believe i did that, hahahah.alls wells :D shared fries and ice lemon tee with morgan. then went to walk around west coast park to relax after a whole day's of freaking tests and classes. we went to the sea area, where many memories come back to live. then we sat there, under the sun, just looking out to the sea where the sea breeze blows. reminded me so many past wonderful memories.

and as morgan and i spoke about our past, we reminisce about our past. in sec1.2.3. we could just do things so carefreely. everything was so perfect in the past. everything went so smoothly.until sec4 came, and everything crashed. in fact, everything starting crashing since sec3. everyone was so separated, in different classes. all splited up.
i dont want to go on anymore.good bye the past, hello fucking future :D
welcome to my life;

there's amath tmr! AHHHH! hahaha. LOLS. freaking out! hahahah. LOL! off to mug for AMATH.

2010-02-24T01:25:00.000-08:00

ahhh. screwed my papers all up.

PHYSICS AND EMATH. freaking screwed it up.

like freak the sciences and maths man! ahahhh!. I'M GOING CRAZY SOON! hhahhaha. argh. irritated. what's wrong with me man! argh.

after sch today, played piano in the hall with morgan.xuefen.ernald.keegan.gates.marcus.

keegan wanted to go play ! hahahaha, LOLS.

then went to west coast plaza for lunch with xuefen.ernald.samuel.marcus.keegan.gates.then weyhau came later. ate alr. then bus-ed to clementi with gates.marcus.neville- so happen to meet him at the bus stop. then came home. so home i m now, emo-ing over the damn papers. FREAK THEM! SCREW THE DAMN PAPERS!!!!!

2010-02-23T01:20:00.000-08:00

finally completed with my humanities papers. gosh, i chiong my Geog like shit today, chinese was rather ok. hand hurts thanks to writing too much, really TOO MUCH!!! everyone was so pmsy today. including me i guess. hahahah. after school, went to West Coast Plaza bread and butter to have lunch, with morgan,janell,xuejun,huijuan and Xuefen! they ate mee siam, morgan and i ate bread :D yum yum, i ate eggsss too! :D hahaha.

ok, i'm gonna chiong my physics and math now, i gotta score! byebye:D

to Zongyuan: thanks :D

2010-02-22T00:51:00.000-08:00

let's see,
today's PE was damn screwedddd! went running around the PCN, then i run run run, damn the gastric man. almost done alr, then i almost collasped. bloody gastric. then i think i hurt my ankle, i can feel the friction between the joints when i walk man,its so painful >.<
then i couldnt do the jumping jacks and the push ups with the rest. cause i couldnt take it anymore.

then after that, normal lessons. then after sch , NO CCA!!! hahaha, YAY!
then went to POPULAR , then went to get lunch, then home i am, going to study for tmr's tests :D so good bye,

STUDYING KILLS MY BRAIN CELLS SO MUCH.
that now , i dont even know how to speak. hahhahha.

2010-02-20T23:46:00.000-08:00

havent been a very smooth day today.
went for piano lesson, didnt play well. screwed up my pieces and scales. fuck them man.
then parents are arguing over stupid matters. how retarded.
having major headache and runny nose, dont feel good at all.
worse of all, i read so many awful comments on fb, till i feel as though life's such a bitch , like one of my friends said. reality is the BIGGEST BITCH EVER. Life cant be like high school musical, as my friend said again.
seriously not in good mood.
i just had 2hrs of chem and phy, and i got to live with another 2hrs of amath later.
seriously . fuck my life. i hate my fucking life.

2010-02-20T03:56:00.000-08:00

went to mrkoh's hse today. which was like just downstairs my hse?

his hse is damn nice man. NOT FAIR. this daughter and son were damn cute! HAHHAHAA. LOVED HIS DAUGHTER!!!

hahahah. had amath tutorial, then morgan, weihong and david came to my hse, had lunch then went to meet the 4E7 people at Queenstown MRT, then went to mrkoh's hse :D hahaha. got 4e9, and 4e7 people most. 4e8 only got weihong. 4e6 only got saf and david.

then stayed at his hse for abt one and a half hrs. then left. went home :D

thank you mr koh! got pictures to show.
OH OH OH. his daughter kissed my cheek ! hahah
DAMN CUTE!!!

to wanrong: hahahahah.

to ERNALD: OMG. really LMAO!

2010-02-18T02:52:00.000-08:00

went to sch earlier today,
had tutorial today.
boring day;
nothing to blog abt today. will only post pictures if can .

2010-02-16T05:50:00.000-08:00

back from Kota Kinabalu ( KK) at last.
day1: left SG , reach KK at abt 7plus? then my aunt came to fetch me, went to her hse, ate dinner. and stayed a night there.

day 2: headed off to MT K with my aunty and family, well not exactly. just went to the mountains area. abt 2hrs ++ bus ride. gosh so long. i only realised now, that i actually have problem going on long rides on car rides. i actually feel giddy and feel like vomitting. LOL. then, went up. just spent literally the whole day on travelling. then stop for a night at some chalet, and it was freezing cold in the night. even in the morning. the chalet was damn dirty. lols.

day 3: woke up at like 6am in the morning, just to catch the sunrise of MT K from my chalet. OMG. SO FREAKING NICE. its like the nicest sunrise ever.PICTURES! haha. then went to the kinabalu park to see where the climbers start their adventure. and i have a major urge to go climb. if i can this yr, i m so going to climb. lols. then went back down to the city, go to HOTEL! hahhaa
OMG OMG OMG OMG. the hotel was damn nice, i was supposed to be staying in a room, but cause fully booked so i got upgraded to A SUITE. OMG ITS DAMN NICE. and 2 bathrooms, a living room, 2 tvs and dvd players :D haahha
OMG OMG. and i had room service dinner ! hahahaha. best time of e trip man. hahahha.

day 4: which is today, came home :D at last.

apparently i didnt buy much, i only bought 2 tshirts, and a dress.
sorry couldnt buy any souveniers cause i didnt see any . lols. more like , they cost a bomb. lols. sorry!

PICTURES NEXT TIME.

to arnold: well thanks for blog hopping. and i m sure, i know and am clear of what to do in my relationships. not trying to say anything offensive, but yea. i know what to do. thanks anyways.

2010-02-12T21:56:00.000-08:00

will be leaving SG today.
now alr preparing to leave. oh man, i wanna watch Valentine's Day, but yet, i cant, cause i wont be in SG. and i didnt bring my amath book home! cant do my homework! DAMN! Raja's so gonna kill me on wednesday. DEAD DEAD DEAD.
going to airport in 30mins , and i m not excited. i dont want to go . its going to be so boring.
haix. goodbye singapore, for only 3 days =.=
shall take nice pictures :D

i will try to blog again, later at the airport:D
goodbye.

PLS DO NOT CALL OR SMS ME FROM TODAY TO TUESDAY
BYEBYE

2010-02-12T07:24:00.001-08:00

t0 sean : next time next time :D

2010-02-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

to sean: HAHAHA HI SEAN!!

2010-02-12T06:49:00.000-08:00

life's so screwed today. no wait, actually life's screwed everyday.
went to sch as per normal, hoping that it would be a good day today cause its the CNY performance.
went down at 0945, everything became so screwed from then on.
time management. ms viv came and things got more screwed. the senior helpers including me didnt know how to tie the CNY dancers' hair.
then make up and all.
we didnt even have the time to run once.
we rushed up like shit to perform.
but i would say, the cny dancers did well. quite synchronized.
the dancers are really strong.
then as i watched the dance, tears just fell. ms viv also kept saying and saying and it was really true. no time management. no discipline. i wasnt even crying over the dance. in fact, i was proud of them . it was really nice.
thanks to those who comforted me.
its time to change dance.

then went for chinese tutorial, then tchoukball. tchockball was so funny. cheryl kept laughing then jwei kept laughing then i kept laughing. lols, i came home.

oh ya,
i wont be in singapore from tmr 5plus to tuesday 5 plus. so please please dont call or sms me !! thanks :D
will be in kota kinabalu.
HAPPY CNY to all,
and happy Valentine's day to all :D
talking abt Vday, i received Vday gifts today! hahha, thanks thanks :D
i got a bear and Royce Chocolate from neville, ferrero rocher from maxine, and brownies for nichelle:D
thanks thanks :D shall get them some stuff for Vday too :D
morgan got ferrero rocher from neville too! HAHAHA.
ok goodbye.

i cried all my tears dry, but yet i am still tearing, and i dont know why.

2010-02-11T04:35:00.000-08:00

to neville : OMG. I M NOT SOME VAMPIRE!

2010-02-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

I WAS LATE YTD. dont want to talk abt it.
didnt come online yesterday cause i was too tired, and it was too late anyways.
stayed back for dance after sch yesterday to help the CNY dancers on their movements, vomitted blood man, i was boiling yesterday. stayed till like 6plus? then waited for my mom to fetch me. then went to eat dinner.

this morning, went to sch early to help out at dance again. basically i help out at dance everyday this week. today had POA test. gosh i screwed it all up ! ALL WRONG WRONG WRONG. freaking screwed man. then after poa, went down for dance again.today the props spoil and everything. OMG so screwed. was boiling man. even more than ytd. ok dont wanna talk abt today.

ok, have to complete math, and 2 chinese compositions tonight. so off i go , byebye :D

oh oh , i m leaving class tmr at 0945! hahaha . for chinese dance . lols dance again. omg after 10th anniversary i m so not going to be so involved in dance anymore. goodbye,

to zongyuan: what you mean?
to neville: i still look perfectly fine in sch right?!

2010-02-09T03:54:00.000-08:00

had dance yesterday, i nearly died. we had photo-taking yesterday. it was so freaking chaotic i swear. the sec4s were to wear ties for our photos. and for 4E7's candid photo, we had our POA textbook, add math textbook, and we wrote like g bar, lols. probably only 4E7 knows this g bar joke, and we also had our double entries for POA! hahaha. it was funny:D
then after school, i got bullied by ernald! OMG. he said that my face was chubby and he kept like , i dont know how to describe it, but ya, OMG! he is chubby too!!! hahhaa.
then went for dance. OMG. dance was a disaster. i didnt even get to eat lunch, cause i heard ms viv was coming at 3pm. we had all our interuptions. and the fucking radio failed on me. that was so fustrating. then we had our photo taking. the dancers were so nosiy, i shouted so much ytd, that today, i lost my voice. dont ask me speak. lols. then the 8 Exco members wore our dance tee, while the rest wore sch uni. then went back for dance. my day was so screwed yesterday.

then today, had IPP . OMG. so funny. we were sealing up the class, and as it got darker and darker, ppl started shouting, " OMG weyhau where are you?! i cant find out! OMG! why is that masking tape moving on its own! AHHH!" then we were inside the classroom,with all our fans on, then suddenly mr heng started peeping through. then we were like, OMG OMG. OFF THE FANS!!! HAHHAHA. then we switched off the fans and open e door. everyone was like controlling their laughter. hahha. then when mrheng left, we switched on the fans, and we were so bored, that afiq and the usual group played their guitar, and we started singing. then we were singing 21 guns. OMG. the lyrics just fitted the atmosphere so much. HAHAHA. what, its not worth dying for, just suffocating. that part lar! OMG SO FUNNY. then when we were told that we can remove. it was even more chaotic. people literally tore down the masking types and run out. AND OMG. it felt as though there was aircon!!! HAHAHA. then had assembly. wasnt listening at all. was falling asleep. then went for lunch. then had tchoukball practice, then i went to the music room to help brush up on the chinese dancers. OMG. i couldnt stand it anymore. i have said enough. there's a real limit. so irritating man, dont they ever understand EL? or were the seniors speaking to them in some foreign language. OMG. so irritating, dont even wanna think abt it. bloody hell.

ok, pissed now.
good bye, there's a Q/A POST TEST PRACTICAL TMR! DIE!
good bye.
fucked up life. i hate coming to sch. i hate coming for dance. i hate life.

to zongyuan: TOO BAD. LOLS

2010-02-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

rather bad day today.
dont wanna talk abt what happened in the morning.
went for piano as usual, came home then clean up my room,then have tuition. i just ended my first tuition. there's one more coming up. and thats amath. 2 more hrs. just 2 more hrs, and i m done. hahahha.

nothing much to blog abt today. really nothing.

to sakshi: yea, i cant find it, where did u post it up?

2010-02-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

Ok, went for amath tutorial today,
and he went : " you dont bloody not do my homework! " hahhaa. must finish amath by monday! AHHH. i m going amath crazy. really shouldnt be doing amath anymore. hahahah.
after tutorial went for lunch, then facial lols.
then home i m now,i will practice piano and do my homework! hahahah. i cant believe i m saying that. lols
then i will be going to BISHAN! hahahha, finally can go out, yay! i miss going out, then tmr one whole day at home studying, lols.
alrights, nothing much to blog abt today, maybe tonight, and maybe not. not sure. byebye

to sakshi: Okay! i shall go see :D HI LESBO! i miss you :D lols

CIP @ elderly's hse

2010-02-05T03:44:00.000-08:00

me,rongfeng,shixuan

me and huijuan's heart!

huijuan,qianhui,me,maxine,rongfeng,shixuan

had CIP work today!

the sec4s went to the houses of the elderly to visit them at Toa Payoh! hahhaa. my group went to this old uncle's hse, then we helped him clean his windows. then we spoke to him. he couldnt really speak cause he just had a throat operation, and he cant eat! he only survives on isotonic drinks everyday. he told us that he had been sick for 3 yrs, and have been staying in the 1-room flat all alone for 10years. we spoke to him , asking abt his past. he isnt married and has no kids of course. he knows how to play poker cards and the rubric cube! probably he felt uncomfortable being in his hse, so we suggested to bring him out for a walk. as we were wearing our shoes getting ready to set off, he locked the door, and suddenly waved bye. my group was like super shocked. so we decided to sent him down,he told him that we accompany him. but he insisted that he walk alone, so off we went to meet mrs tee.

then mrs tee dispatched my group. afiq and hoeyan went to some block , not sure. i was thrown to a all boys group, lols , with Quenten. we went to marcus's group! hahhaa. that lady at marcus's group was quite nice, but she has quite a sad story. haix. i feel so sad for them. after that lady's hse we went down ,and waited for all to gather, then we went back to sch.

after we were dismissed. went to Chinese tutorial. damn sian lor. after tutorial, went to popular with wanrong and xuefen, david and samuel.

then went back to sch for tchoukball! we started off at the field, then it started raining, no, pouring to be exact. then we went to the hall. then we went to the parade square. OMG. i love tchoukball! i m getting the hang of it! hahahaha! yay! TCHOUKBALL NUTS. hahhaa. played from like 2plus in the afternoon till 5plus, then went home.

overall, had a fun day today. :D

ohno, tmr got AMATH FOR 3 DAMN FREAKING HOURS! kill me. really. kill me.

to ray: life is tiring!

to neville: quite high lar!

to zongyuan: yup we got it alr, its laminated somemore! hahahah!

Marina Barrage

2010-02-03T03:09:00.000-08:00

went to sch, collection of OBS certificates! LOL hahahhaha. like finally. after soo sooo long. oh well, happy happy :D

then went to class, mr raja never come, then some relief teacher came in, OMG. she was freaking irritating. come on lar, she's just a relief teacher. what can she do ? i was doing the CD stuff, then she ask me to do my math, i nicely told her that i needed to finish it and hand it up. then she was like, " but the office told me to tell u to do ur work, " in a freaking rude manner and rolled her eyes at me. then i really dont like her attitude, i roll my eyes back. lols, then she walk off , pissed i guess. then had POA test. SCREWED. like FREAKING SCREWED. lols. confirm fail. then math again, that same relief teacher came in. i ask her whether i could go toilet, she roll her eyes at me. i heck care just walk off to toilet. come on lar, its freaking irritating lar. then she also scolded gates and samuel for something, that one i dont know. LOL. then she go tell ms tan. walao eh. not happy say lar. lols. then had recess then SS. then do work do work. hand up. then OFF TO LUNCH. didnt eat,wasnt hungry. i drink NUTRI SOY! hahaha.

then OFF TO MARINA BARRAGE! hahhaa. it was fun :D it was a day full of taking pictures with 4E7! hahha. took alot of pics. shall try to upload some. for more go to fb :D

i wanna go marina barrage again! wait till i get my Canon EOS 500D then i go! hahahah :D

happy girl for the day :D

2010-02-02T03:32:00.000-08:00

couldnt come online on sunday, monday. like finally my hands touch the keyboard. I MISS YOU KEYBOARD! hahhaha. i had 4 hrs of tuition on sunday, piano 1hr, chem/phy 2hr, amath 2hr. ok its 5hrs. OMG. so tiring. then i chiong my POA, then stayed up all night to do my physcis, in the end still failed. then next day was super tired.

had dance yesterday. the lift was ALMOST there. like turn halfway , i start rolling on the floor, lols. hahahahaha. OK. vanessa came back to help too. wille was such a disappointment. so slow lor he. ok nevermind abt dance.

then today, had some boring assembly. had chem Q/A pretest. omg, i killed myself.
actually it was easy, if u studied. i last minute study,cause last night, i chiong my physics mindmap again.. and i didnt manage to hand it up today! DAMN IT. no wonder i m sneezing and coughing. i think i m gonna get sick. real sick.

oh, and i had tchoukball practice with PEGASUS today! hahaha. playing with the seniors is really quite fun, had a fun tchoukball session today! finally got the real taste of tchoukball :D

ohyay! hahaha, and now i m aching all over. plus i m freaking hungry , cause i didnt eat lunch. OMG. hahahah.

ok, i m gonna watch HI MY SWEETHEART last episode! i heard its a stupid ending. then i will go off to study. LOLS. BYEBYE

3hrs of AMATH

2010-01-30T01:53:00.001-08:00

went for amath tutorial this morning.
met morgan earlier, then chiong corrections. LOL. but in the end, it wasnt even used=.="
mr Raja taught Trigonometry. GOSH. it was boring, lols. really boring, was kinda falling asleep in the last part of the lesson. there's more to come next week! NOOOO! hahhaha.
going to have family reunionn later, well, soon actually.
and i m not awaiting for that. cause, i am apparently the most stupid one amongst all. LOL.
i am tired all doing my work, and i cant believe i was doing my work. i was actually doing my work. ACTUALLY DOING IT. LOL.
i think i've gone mad after too much of amath. could any kind soul save me please? LOL. pretty please?? :D

hahha, will come back to blog more i guess.
and xuefen said that i tweet very little, but morgan tweets less than me! HAHAH.

to wr: what on the right track? what u mean?

2010-01-29T03:32:00.000-08:00

It was a
1. worrying
2. scary
3. shocking
4. freaking me out
5. pissing
6. funny

DAY .

its all in chronological order, from morning till 6pm btw.
contradicting much? yup, u can say so. hahaha. i was worried for janell, then i found out something really shocking and scary after knowing abt the process and the whole incident, then i got freaked out and so traumatised that until now, i still cant really get over it.LOLS. then i found out that there was chinese tutorial and its damn what the hell. its not even stated on the damn timetable lar. and i got screamed at by someone who isnt even involved in the chinese tutorial, thinking that she is all so great and that she knows everything. comeon lar, its my issue not yours.
then i had dance. hahah. the process of making or choreographing the modern was so funny.
and my back hurts, LOL HHAHHA. no more like my ass hurts, hahaha, ok no more of those.
then after dance, we had this really funny joke. Mslim made the angmoh accent, and then she said, " sakshi, are u an AN MO?" then jwei and i laughed damn loudly and then it got repeated, and i laughed even harder. HAHAH. it was damn funny. so damn damn funny.
then i took the bus and train home . now i am home. there's 3hrs of Amath tmr with Mr Raja. OH NO. lols. i got to bring toothpicks with me, so that i can make sure that my eyelids are always open, like what mrbean always does. Learn from Mrbean, he teaches you the most ridiculous things ever, to make your day. hahhaa.

and i learnt a new weird today : adrenaline. and i think its means energy. or some hormone stuff, LOL.. forgot already.
ok, now i m gonna slack and then study laterr :D
wow, i m studying.
oh and damn wille tan weili didnt come for dance today, and i couldnt do the duet , lols, it was so weird. oh well, who cares.

to ernald: hahah. yea, LOL. totally agree.

2010-01-28T01:56:00.000-08:00

didnt come online yesterday.
was busy studying physcis, but in the end, i fell asleep.
today wasnt a very pleasant day, got scolded. well, more like the class got scolded.
had POA tutorial today. i finally understood what disposal is. LOLS.

i need to majorly study for my tests. LOLS. i might just flung everything.
and my mom told me that my science tuition teacher might not be committed enough to teach me for Os. cause i was re-arranging my tuitions, and then i ask my teacher whether 4pm sunday can or not, then she was like, " is that the only choice?" then my mom saw , and she was like, " i dont think ur teacher is committed enough to teach you, " then i thought to myself: <>
and now i think again,
i think my teacher really doesnt want to teach me, cause i suck in science. and cause she despises combined science students. and now i think even harder, i feel like saying WHAT THE HELL. COMBINED SCIENCE STUDENT CAN ALSO SCORE OK, NOT AS THOUGH PURE SCIENCE STUDENTS ARE ALL SMART. come on lar, dont despise us can? like u very good like that.
i feel insulted man. i rather not study than have a teacher who despises me and is not committed to teaching, and only teach for the sake of MONEY.
PISSED.

2010-01-26T01:34:00.000-08:00

had dance yesterday, so didnt use computer.
so tired. nothing much happened today. i only know i was falling asleep in class.
had assembly, some jazz music thingy, quite boring though. hahha. and now, when i laugh, or sneeze or cough, my tummy hurts. cause i used too much of my muscle yesterday. DAMNNN.
so dont make me LAUGH. LOLS. retarded.
then went to ShengSiong with : wanrong, huijuan,yvonne,janell. to get our CD stuff. then we met so many ppl there. all e sec4s, buying all the CD stuff. HAHAHAH. we met 4e9, 4e6. but somehow , somewhat, we never seem to have fate with 4e8. hahahha. OH WELL.

then went back to sch to put the things, then went to market buy "lunch", which was PORRIDGE! hahaha. well its wasnt really LUNCH anymore, more like high-tea.HAHAH. LOLS.
and then went home. took 51home today. cause was too lazy to walk. hahhaa. and now i m home , hahaha. going to do some work and study, after watching HI MY SWEETHEART, if got new episode! HAHAHAHA. hahaha. ok , byebye

to zongyuan: =.=" just -.-" totally =.=

2010-01-24T00:25:00.000-08:00

went to Tiong baru to have dinner ytd! ate SAKAE SUSHI. OMG, boycott them , hahha. the standard's really dropping like shit. then went to IKEA to get my new table lamp! hahaha YAY, can study better now!

went for piano lesson today. wah, pieces and scales were all so screwed. cause i didnt have the time to practice lately. if i fail my g6 this time, i swear, i will not continue piano man. lols, after that, went to YUMCHA for breakfast cum lunch , so long never eat YUMCHA alr, miss it sooo much. then came home for tuition. tuition's such a dread. lols. then finish tuition, clean up my room, then went to get something for my mom. then home i am now, later i m going to do my POA, study SS, do amath :D hahahah, finally, i m starting my homework.

its gonna be a long day tmr. DANCE DANCE and MORE DANCE. so "inspiring". LOLS. i dont know what i m talking abt..

to zongyuan: are u sure abt that? come to my sch,and tell me whether u are going to get it worse than me.

to KAU: hahah, CHENBAOZHU is better than MOLI lor!!

to neville : u ???? for what?

2010-01-23T02:46:00.000-08:00

bad day today?
probably not as bad as two days before, but well it was ok. had 2 tuitions today. math and chinese. both was probably still ok, but tiring. i have been slacking away since 4.45pm, hhhahaha,TILL LIKE NOW. lols,going to do some POA now,then i'm going out :D for dinner, yay finally can go out i havent left the hse today ! hahahaha.

good mood today, but monday, i'm gonna die, so bad mood ! hahah , --MONDAY BLUES--

2010-01-22T06:29:00.000-08:00

Lets see,
sch was more screwed today. got scolded like 2times by discipline comm? and mr raja just had to go straight into my face and disturb me about me and gates, when i was in a freaking bad mood? and no geog today, literally spent the 90mins slacking away, LOLS. but nevermind. had chinese tutorials after sch, then went for dance. OMG. dance was even more screwed. dancers have no discipline. NOISY. GOSSIPY. and they have to laugh and talk after doing 1 set of barworks. i mean like, come on man, is there a freaking need to speak? one second dont speak will die arh?LOLS. spent like most of my barwork time screaming like some mad freak. and i slipped and fell! OUCH. EMBARRASSING SIA. lOLS. but who cares. sometimes a little embarrassment adds colours to life :D hahha, so lame. Then after dance, went home. damn tired. cause i dont have enough sleep. lols.

LIFE FREAKING SCREWED.

to neville: ------------CHEERING UP IN PROCESS-----------

2010-01-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

freaking screwed day today.
dont wanna talk abt it.

to wanrong: oh ya hor, lols
to neville: nice right?? LOLS